Cognizance of Alayande

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Why do I feel one line of a song is introspection into my own life, like the writer of the song read my mind? Music can be scary. There have been times where I play a song which I have heard a million times, and a lyric makes itself stand out above all of the other lyrics in the song, a lyric I never truly acknowledged or analyzed. The lyric suddenly transforms from a wordy statement into a reflection or parallel of my life. Has something in my life changed which made me suddenly pay delicate attention to what this lyric was trying to tell me? Why was I walking down the quad listening to “F.A.M.E”. byYoung Jeezy and suddenly the chorus made a piercing emotional appeal? Why did I suddenly hear “I wake up feeling empty” in the chorus and relate? Did Young Jeezy know I also share this daily and inevitable routine, and why have I had this song on repeat for the past hour because of this chorus? Music is scary to me. I have never been the individual to easily convey my emotions or thoughts to people, not even loved-ones. There is no denying the music I listen to expresses what I am too terrified to say out loud, whisper, or even think in my head. Sometimes I am scared and ashamed of my own thoughts, but these artist throw their thoughts, testimonies, and adversities over a beat. Why does Kid Cudi’s song “All Along” make such an astounding correlation to my own life, and why must I put this song on repeat for twenty minutes in the middle of a shuffle on my iPod? Do I think “I am meant to be alone, out there on my own,” forever? What in my life made me understand the situation of wanting something which hates me? I know, but you never will. Kid Cudi might know. I think kid Cudi makes more emotional appeals on me than any other rapper, but he does not get the title of my favorite rapper. Aside from his drug abuse, I can always relate to his bad decisions, followed by their unpleasant outcomes. His soul is dark and so is his ink.